A beautiful life

Anger

2011-07-06T00:44:00.001+01:00

Suddenly thought of my 가족.. The only emotion that surfaced was anger. Couldn't it and..myself be any more screwed up? I couldn't even recall that there was a new addition, because the person involved did not bother telling me.

So much anger, frustration bottled up.. Well that's what we do best, since we've recieved special training since young to do just that. And avoidance too, it's impressive how good I am at that. To an extent that I don't feel associated with the 가족 anymore. Nowhere to turn to. But of course who would understand? Feeling so distant and alone.

Will it ever get better? How? I wonder..

Having second thoughts about December now, maybe I should cancel the plan.

Vacant episodes

2010-10-30T14:50:00.001+01:00

Have had these episodes in the past, bit it's occurring more frequently since I started work.

There'll be moments where I'll feel that I'm falling forward for a few seconds.. I've got awareness, my eyes are opened and I can continue doing what I was doing without any interruptions. When I'm doing something, usually as I'm standing or sitting.

This is worrying..

Don't think it's vaso-vagal,
Don't think it's an absent seizure,
What could it be?!

Lost weight

2010-10-30T14:26:00.001+01:00

Lost a bit of weight since I started working.. Until my ring size changed. Oh dear! Perhaps it's an indicator that I need a new ring ;)

# to base of 5th metatarsal

2010-10-26T20:26:00.001+01:00

After 7 long weeks of the inversion injury to my L foot.. It's finally FRS free!

My graduation..

2010-10-26T01:55:00.001+01:00

Perhaps my once in a lifetime.. Unfortunately with no family present. Only Edmund seems to understand how upsetting it is.

MB ChB..

2010-10-25T22:38:00.003+01:00

I've achieved it.. my 5th aim in life, a MB ChB degree.

After 5 1/2 long years of hardwork, stress, tears and also last minute cramming..
I've finally pass all my examinations, assessments and supervisor reviews
4 months ago and graduated from Uni of Manchester.

As a DOCTOR!

I've heard a really good phrase from a movie before and it says:-
人生的过程就是一个梦想连接着一个梦想，我完成了一个，现在又要朝下一个前进。

I've reached my destination

and now I have to embark on a new journey to set off for my next destination.
Unfortunately this is yet another long and difficult one..
The only thing I can hope for is that..
this new journey would mould me to become a stronger, braver and wiser person.
And most importantly, that I could read my destination.

All I want for my birthday is..

2010-01-18T01:33:00.003Z

PMP: Satisfactory
OSCEs: Satisfactory
Progress Test: Satisfactory

Congratulations! You are exempted from Year 5 final exams.

2010-01-10T21:42:00.000Z

I only paid half the price.. therefore it would not come to me :(

2010-01-09T18:07:00.002Z

Good things always comes with a price.. no matter what form it comes in.

Emotions

2010-01-09T17:08:00.003Z

I'm surprised at how well I could suppress my emotions.. I even have myself fooled!

All I needed to do was not to think about the specific issue that was upsetting me, bury it deep and viola, I won't be disturbed by it.. unfortunately this only apply to serious, uncontrollable matters. Guess it's because I had half a lifetime's worth of experience on that.

As for trivial matters.. they still get on my nerves unfortunately. All the time in fact.. and my poor boyfriend will have to endure it, but those won't last.

It's 2010.. Happy new year!

2010-01-01T00:59:00.000Z

Remember a decade ago, when we entered the new mellenium? They were saying that it's gonna be the end of the world ;p

Now a decade has passed and we're entering the second decade of the new millennium.. We're still here, managing pretty well.. despite the recent economy meltdown and some traumatic terrorist attacks.. remember 911.

I believe we'll do just fine, better even as the years goes.. and for us, the young adults in their twenties, this is gonna be our decade.. where we shine and bring changes to this messed up world.

So live your life to the fullest, don't be afraid to dream, if you fall down climb back up again.. cause this is your decade.

Time out..

2009-07-01T18:40:00.003+01:00

I did it, it's time out between us and how do I feel?

It was ok at first, then numbness came in.

But I shall remain strong..

Shall use my time and attention to become a better person instead.

This is gonna be the start of something new.. good things will come my way.

Good old times..

2009-06-26T01:08:00.002+01:00

Was looking through my old photo albums and realized a couple of things:
1. Something's missing nowadays.. there's no more sparks or excitement in my life, my mood's strongly affected by the people around me and happiness are short-lived.
2. You can pretend to be happy, make yourself appear happy or even brainwash yourself so that you are in the 'moment', but these 'fake' feelings could never be captured.. via photography or memory because those moment was not appreciated. When you look back at the photos, you won't be able to feel those feelings again unlike other experiences where you truly enjoyed the moment.
3. I really miss the good old times. I felt that was truly happy, truly loved and I appreciated every single moment when I'm experiencing.
4. Perhaps it's because I take things for granted nowadays and experiences.. eg: dining out, is no longer special because I've had similar experiences before anyway.

Man.. I really need to do something to change these negative mentality and attitude. I'm no longer myself anymore, I'm no longer functioning anymore either.. can't even speak properly anymore.

微笑

2009-05-01T11:46:00.004+01:00

很久没从心里笑出来了..笑吧!

Extremes

2009-05-01T11:29:00.004+01:00

don't live in extremes.. remember

after hapiness, it's always sadness next

Now "Who am I?"

2009-04-05T22:05:00.004+01:00

Did the test twice and came up with two different set of answers for some.. so which one am I to you?

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
or
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
or
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
or
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
or
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

And the real me:
1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

My personality love style..
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

I'm such a lazy bum bum..

2009-01-15T11:39:00.003Z

Alright.. I've been home for X'mas, Justin's birthday & NYear Celebrations, now I'm back in Manchester. Really wanted to write.. about the trip and my relevations this winter, don't really know why but this visit home made me do a lot of thinking, but my current M&M placement is pretty hectic.. 9-5pm on most days with no Wednesday afternoons off! Kenn have always had his in Preston.. must say that it's totally unfair!!!!! I know this is what the S'ban peeps experience every single day since they've started clinical school, but Manc have allowed me to turn into a lazy bum bum. It's really really bad.. sigh.

And I'm still trying very hard to force myself to start preparing for my Progress Test this Monday as well. I must say, I've become really really lazy, my time management is awful and my brains are not working as hard as it used to.. my aim's just to read the OHCM for the test and yet I've only managed like 6 pages up till now.

Anyway, I self declared a day off. Hope I won't get into trouble for skipping an OutPatients Clinic this morning (actually I overslept and woke up 3 mins before the clinic starts). Sipping Old Town White Coffee now, hopefully this will motivate me to start revising and STOP MAKING THIS POST LONGER AND LONGER!

Hopefully I can pass this test.. must really psych myself to be more hardworking from now onwards, otherwise at the rate that I'm going.. I will definately have a tough time passing Year 5 finals.

I'm a CBNer...

2008-12-16T03:37:00.002Z

The recent annoucement from Pos Malaysia shook the entire CBN community.. as well as many other communities, because four premier schools have been honored with special sets of Pos Malaysia stamps and First-Day covers! The four schools are: Victorian Institution, SMK Convent Bukit Nanas, SM All Saints (Kota Kinabalu) and SMK St Thomas (Kuching)

The news was released by The Star Newspaper on 13th December 2008 and within the same day, you can see CBNers posting up messages like "I'm a CBNer or Proud to be a CBNer or links to The Star Newspaper's website" on their Facebook or MSN Messanger.

I can truly understand how they felt, because I'm a CBNer as well!

Nevertheless, many others are dissatisfied with Pos Malaysia's choice of school.. for example Penang Port Sdn Bhd chief executive officer Datuk Ahmad Ibnihajar publicly voiced out his dissatisfaction in The Star Newspaper and demanded that Pos Malaysia must come out with additional stamps to honour his Alma Mater, Penang Free School.. Malaysia's oldest school.

Well we are all proud of our own schools, aren't we?

All these made me reminiscent about CBN and suddenly the school song popped into my mind. You know.. I sang this song (English/Malay version) every single morning & afternoon (only in Form 1&2) for 11 years! My primary school headmistress was so particular about the lyrics, she actually rehearsed us over and over again until we finally get it right.

Man, how I miss CBN..

CBN's School Song
English Version
CBN
The shining star of my life
You will always glow within me
And through me you will shine forth
A new light others will follow

CBN
With us your memory will stay
You will always light the way
Show us our strength and our hopes
CBN, our star forever more

So hear our song sung with spirits strong
We the girls of CBN today
We'll lift up our motto and strive to be
Simple in virtue
Steadfast in duty

So hear our song sung with spirits strong
We the girls of CBN today
The youth of tomorrow we promise to be true
For CBN we love you.

Malay Version
CBN
Sinar bintang hidupku
Bercahaya di sanubari
Sering begemerlapan
Pancar sinar untuk semua

CBN
Ingatankan bersemi
Kerana kau penyuluh hidup
Tunjukkan harapan teguh
CBN, bintang abadiku

Dengarlah suara semangat waja
Kami insan CBN kini
Teruskan cita dan usaha
Tulus dengan fadilah
Azam dengan bakti

Dengarlah suara semangat waja
Kami insan CBN kini
Bakal pemudi harapan negara
Kerana CBN kau tercinta

My current fav..

2008-12-15T15:20:00.000Z

周杰伦-稻香
Jay Chou-Dao Xiang

Dui zhe geh shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo der bao yuan
Die dao ler jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zhou
Wei shern mer ren yao zhe mo der chui ruo, duo luo
Qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan
Duo shao ren wei shen ming zai nuh li yong gan de zhou xia qu
Wo mern shi bu shi gai zhi zu
Zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you

(Chorus)
Hai ji der ni shuo jia shi wei yee der chern bao
Shui zhe dao xiang her liu ji xu bern pao
Wei wei xiao
Xiao shi hou de mong wo zhi dao
Bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao
Xiang jian der ger yao yong yuan der yee kao
Hui jia ba hui dao zui chu der mei hao

Bu yao zhe mo rong yee jiu xiang fang qi
Jiu xiang wo shuo der
Zui bu dao der mong xiang
Huan ger mong bu jiu der ler
Wei zhi ji der ren shen xian yan shang sheh
Xian ba ai thu shang xi huan der yan sheh
Xiao yi ger ba
Gong cheng ming jiu bu shi mu dee
Rang zhi ji kuai ler kuai ler
Zhe cai jiao zuo yi yee
Tong niang der zhi fei ji
Xian zai zhong yee fei hui wo shou lee
Suo wei der na kuai ler
Chi jiao zai tian lee zui ching ting zui dao lei ler
Tou cai shui guo bei ming feng gei ding dao pa ler
Shui zai tou xiao ner
Wo kao zhe dao cao ren chui zhe feng
Chang zhe ger shui zao ler

Oh oh
Wuu hou ji ta zai chong ming zhong gern ching chui

Oh oh
Yang guang sa zai lu shang jiu bu pa xing shui

Zhern xi yee qie
Jiu suan mei you yong you

Repeat Chorus

Re-entering the blogging world..

2008-12-13T21:30:00.002Z

Just realized that I've not blogged for about half an academic year

This must have been the longest period I've been MIA from the blogging world

So what's changed?

EVERYTHING..

Many things have happened this year..

New Apartment, New Car,

New Placements, New PBL Mates, New Experiences,

New Friends, Closer Friends, More Distant Friends,

New Prespective, New Style, Altered Habits,

And a different ME?!

(Just a bit I guess, hope I've retained the good and dumped the bad)

Tagged by J..

2008-09-14T02:00:00.002+01:00

Haven't updated my blog for ages ;p guess this is why Jay tagged me..

So here goes..
1. At what age do you wish to marry? Balance would be the word, really hope I could achieve my aims first.. have a stable job & financial status before considering marriage. But then I would be in my mid 30ies by then.
2. What is your most favourite thing to do? My most most most fav thing to do.. is TRAVELLING!
3. If you have a close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend? I doubt this friend will be my close close close friend by now.. perhaps close friend ;) Everybody has a threshold.
4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat? Mm.. there's nothing that I could think of at the moment.
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? To be able to live the life I want by the age of 30.
6. Do you believe you can survive without money? No
7. What are you afraid to lose the most? My partner, friends and family
8. When was ur latest best moment? Stepping into my new flat in Manchester, cause finally there's a place I can call 'Home' in UK.
9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? It really depends on the situation..
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.-Very patient, Great Dancer, Good leader
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? Understanding, supportive, caring, non-controlling, definately not a show-off/pretender/smoker/use foul language (hate 'em), and most of all loves me ;)
12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad? Show-offs, pretenders, back-stabbers, manipulators...there's loads, c'mon.
13. What is your ambition? Be a traveller ;p doubt my parents will acknowledge this.
14. Is anyone really perfect? No way
15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ? I really don't know.. have never experienced the extremes of both to know which one I'd prefer more. Next!
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? The lazy bit of me... that's definately it ;p
17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with? My partner and two trusted friends
18. If someone had found a path to immortality to be bestowed upon you in exchange for one of your abilities, would you take it, and what would you sacrifice for it? I don't wish to live beyond 65 years old actually. So no thanks.
19. What is the best thing that had happened in your life? Being born into this world.. to look the way I am, with the personality and characteristics that I have, to be blessed with some wonderful and true friends in my life, to have a great boyfriend and to be given plenty of opportunities & exposures to all sorts of things as I grow up.. in attempt to prepare myself to for the real world.

And so I tag...

1. Kisa
2. Li
3. HauChun
4. EeWan
5. CYin

Don't wanna wake up..

2008-08-15T14:14:00.001+01:00

Felt like I've been dreaming for the past 6 1/2 weeks..

It started off with a long haul flight in a plane. Just couldn't get any rest.. to fill my time, I actually watched 4 movies and listened to songs in between!!

Without realizing it, I was back in KL.. my brother who was studying in NZ, my mum and sis picked me up from KL Sentral! Not bad eh my bro from NZ was involved ;p But I only had a couple of days to spend with him because he had to go back to NZ and he was also too busy 'pak thor'-ing with his gf ;p

Everything that took place after that happened too quickly..

Let see..

-There was dinner in Souled Out with Li, CYin & Sze Siew after that I finally made my first visit to Murni's with with Darren, Jay and Kenn.

-Steamboat and kareoke session at Darren's place..

-Meeting up with the juniors

-Dai pai dong feasts

-Managed to meet up with ReiKa in 1Utama before she went.. had my first sushi meal at Sakae Sushi.

-Celebrated mum's birthday

-Had my favourite sweet & spicy crab with fried mantau, as well as marmite crab at Leng Kee.

-Had quite an experience rushing between the airport then back home and immediately to Ikano because I had to send my brother off back to Dunedin, send my sister home and then rush to Ikano to celebrate Kenn's birthday!

-Chilled out at Sanctuary, The Curve.

-Went shopping in Mid Valley, The Gardens, BSV I & II, Telawi's streets, 1 Utama, Sunway Pyramid and Pavillion.. think that's all I managed ;p

-Met up with friends for tea of all sorts.. dessert, char chan teng, dai pai dong, tea houses, cafes, lounges.. you name it.

-Finally spent some quality time with Kenn.. movie, meals, just hanging out or shopping. Always feel very laid back and relaxed with him.

-Finally finally had real 'Tong Shui' at KeiTakSek, Kepong.. had so many that night, my stomach almost burst!

-Organized a PM3 weekend trip to Seremban and Melaka.. to be honest with you, it was purely a catching up and EATING SPREE. Lets see.. In seremban we mamaked and 1 hour later we went for korean food. In Melaka.. we had chicken rice ball, nyonya chendol, satay celup, durians all in one day. I even ate a Nyonya 'BaChang' and a mooncake when I got home that night. Fattening!

-Even managed to eat my fav 'chee cheong fun' at Lucky Restaurant.

-Kai Lyn also visited us and we went to Luna Bar to chill out.

-Caught up with Mingy, watched Red Cliff with her at Pavillion.. the cinema's quite nice really.

-Also tried out o'ChaCha, really liked it.

-Oh.. Jay, Kenn, Li, William, CYin, Sze Siew and I also had a Pasar malam dinner in SriPetaling.

-Then I met up with my cousin May Ling from Singapore and we had high tea with A.Michelle in 1Utama hotel. The cafe was quite nice really ;p and I would give the waiters there 100% for their services!

-I even manage to meet up with the Ballet girls, with Yong Hui missing.. went to this Indonesian restaurant in Puchong which serves really good dishes.

-Then I attended Amy's wedding in Rennaisance Hotel.. managed to meet up with many ex-CBNers.

-Organized a 5B '02 reunion in Italiannes, The Gardens.. which turned out to be quite a success. 3 teaches turned up and 1/2 of the class turned up! Had a really great time catching up.

-The CBN gang also met up for Steamboat at Yuens, Sunway Pyramid. After that, SaoYee and I went on to Zouk to meet more CBNers ;p

-Also watched Sex and the City for the second time with Li, Sze Siew and CYin.

-Then the 4 of us flew to HongKong, met up with Jay there and explored HongKong & Disneyland & Macau over the period of 7 days. Had loads of fun there.. really, I finally managed to visit WongTaiSin (Jay was nice enough to teman me there ;p), went to 'Miu Kai', finally got to have breakfast at LukYu, then went to see the LamTsuen Wishing Tree, took a ferry to Lamma Island for seafood, went clubbing in LanKwaiFong, took the newly built 360degree cable car into Ngong Ping Shan, went to Disneyland and finally made my way to Macau! We even met up with LJ, Ed and Jaycen. Unfortunately I fell ill after clubbing too much in LanKwaiFong on day 3/4.. I actually felt so rotten, it was a huge effort to drag myself out of bed every morning. Luckily I didn't give in to my desire to stay in ;p

-When I got back.. I manage to meet up with the super busy Nicole Chong ;p we had brunch in Marmalade and did a bit of shopping in Bangsar together. It's nice to meet up with your pal from high school, just to catch up and maintain the bond ;p

-Oh.. btw, I bought a new laptop this summer! A super cun HP-dv5.. guys hear this: Core2Duo (2.53GHz), 4GB ram, can't remember the size of the dedicated ram to the NViDIA Graphics card, can't remember the model number of the graphics card either.. but do know that it's quite good, built in tv tuner, HDMI compatible, blu-ray player, built in webcam and fingerprint technology. That's all I can remember ;p

-I also learned how to make Kaya ;p

-And I finally went to Yut Kee with Li, Shang, Jay and CYin for some Kinta Valley style dai pai dong breakfast. The place itself kinda of reminded me about Fung Loi in Batu Gajah.. they look quite similar therefore it's gives quite a nostalgic feel. Reminded me of my grandma, the sweets store in the alley next door, the creepy bedroom upstairs, the dark toilets, 3 KuMa's noodles and the free flow drinks from the fridge. I had kopi 'ping' and kaya, toast & half boiled eggs that day. They menu's more fusion in Yut Kee though.

-On the same day I actually went back to CBN just to have a look at my old primary and secondary school. Found out that they repainted the entire building.. I felt as if I've been transported back to primary school ;p

-After CBN, i actually went to Pavillion to meet up with Li & all.. just to hang out. We ended up in C.Club for some desserts. On my first week back in Malaysia.. I actually went to the C.Club to ask about the type of food and drinks they serve. One of the waiter actually ended up giving me a full tour of their 2 story outlet which includes the dining area, the lounge, the champagne section, diamonds section, I think there was a watch section as well and the bar downstairs. He thought I wanted to organize some big event in C.Club and given me their menu+magazine of the month along with relavent name cards. When I told HC about this story, he called me a 'Spoilt princess' planning a party! Grr... I dun mind being a princess but I will not be called a spoilt princess HC!

-Although Kenn and I didn't make it to Kogetsu, we ate at Sushi Zanmai. In Japan Sushi Zanmai's like Sushi King in KL, but I wonder if both Sushi Zanmai's from the same company. I really loved the ones in Japan, the sashimi was really fresh and sushi was really nicely prepared. The one in 1Utama was not that bad either, honestly.

-Oh yeah.. this summer I indulged myself with manicure & pedicure spas as well. Color culture is really good.. if you feel like giving yourself a treat, then you can check this place out and ask for current promotions!

-The best part of this holiday is, I got to spend time with my sis.. did quite a lot together like taking PuRiKuRas, movies, eating and shopping. Typical things that we do ;p

-And before I left, the entire family went out for dinner in Maju Palace. Really had a great time, I brought a bottle of Moet & Chandon from our collection at home, dad brought his Blue label... after a couple of drinks, everyone ended up doing more singing and dancing instead of eating ;p

-A couple of days before I left, Edward visited KL.. we met up in Jalan Alor for dinner and after that Lecka Lecka for some drinks. Vicky, Ang, CYin and Nic was there as well. On the day I left, we went to RedBox for some last minute Kareoke-ing ;p

-Met up with my mum, sis, A.Michelle and YeeLing at C.Club right after kareoke-ing as well, had a lovely brunch there. It's nice to indulge your mum and sis once in awhile don't you think ;p

My dad didn't sent me off that night.. only my mum and my sis went ;p it was really nice of Isabel for coming along, because she had to wake up at about 4-5am the next morning.. because her choir team made it to the nationals, TV3 wanted them to perform live and interview everyone of them after that. That's quite cool isn't it, too bad I left 1 day too early.

Without knowing it, I boarded the plane and was on my way back to Manchester. 7 weeks passed by just like that.. would really say that most of the things happened too quickly but I must also add that initially I wanted to do more, unfortunately I'm getting old and halfway through the vacation I got quite exhausted. BUT I really had a great time... CHEERS!

Oh no!

2008-07-09T09:31:00.001+01:00

I lost the bracelet my mom gave me for my 21st birthday!

Where is it?! Where is it?!

Woo~ Very very sad..

Evie's back in Kuala Lumpur

2008-07-07T18:30:00.002+01:00

After 12 hours of flight and a total of 6 hours of waiting time.

I'm finally back home.. people lets PARTY!

But before that.. I shall zZzZZ first. Didn't get any the in the last 24 hours.

Halfway home..

2008-07-07T05:56:00.000+01:00

Am in Dubai International Airport now..

to all my friends in Malaysia, SEE YOU SOON!

Tying all loose ends..

2008-07-05T23:23:00.003+01:00

It's all coming to an end now.

Friday was an eventful day..

*results was out. I PASSED! I'm officially a 4th year medical student.

*I have to hand in my SSC essay and project report.

My consultant was very happy with it.

*It was officially THE LAST DAY of the academic year.

Summer hols is here!

*I finally got the keys to my new apartment.

Shifted in today and actually I'm in the midst of unpacking now ;p

So to celebrate, we decided to do give ourselves a treat.. it started off with Curry Laksa by Chef Hiew and Rose wine by CYin, then a taste of Jazz in Manchester's one and only Las Vegas style casino, Manc235ter.

We wanted to watch a movie in AMC cinemas but apparently 10.30pm was too late for movies, so we ended up in Northern Quarters to a bar called Walrus.. famous for their cocktails, I bought a drink called Flower Power and it was really good ;p Ed even bought us a bottle of wine, where we made a toast to our success in passing Year 3! The day.. or I should say the next morning ended with supper in TaiWu.

Like I said, it was pretty eventful.

Pictures to come later. Cheers!

Friday 4th July..

2008-07-03T10:12:00.002+01:00

SSC essay & project report's deadline,

Shifting in date to The Lock Building..

and Results are coming out Tomorrow!

Wish me luck *Grinz*

I'm going home..

2008-06-30T12:53:00.000+01:00

in 6 days time.

Three months ago when I accompanied Kenn to pick-up his parents from Manchester airport. I saw the 1st scene of Love Actually playing right in front of me. It was really heart warming, to see the change of emotions in the people who were waiting for their loved ones at the arrival gate... from longing and anticipation to smiles, hugs and tears of joy. Even crying kids smiled.

I couldn't help but shed a few drops of tears too. At that very moment, I thought to myself.. will I break into tears when I see my family members at the arrival gate or will I remain calm and composed.

It is finally the time to go home now. Although I will not see any familiar faces at the arrival gate this time, I wonder how I will feel when I finally reach home.

To be honest with you, I already have the answer in my mind.. but we'll see if my heart and my mind feels the same.

Les Champs Elysees..

2008-06-27T01:00:00.000+01:00

Its direct translation is.. The Elysian Fields.

Which means, the Paradise..

Therefore, Je Suis Aux Champs Elysees

Will mean.. I'm in Paradise!

My current fav..

2008-06-26T13:56:00.001+01:00

Joe Dassin-Les Champs Elysees

Je m'baladais sur l'avenue le coeur ouvert à l'inconnu
J'avais envie de dire bonjour à n'importe qui
N'importe qui et ce fut toi, je t'ai dit n'importe quoi
Il suffisait de te parler, pour t'apprivoiser

Aux Champs-Elysées, aux Champs-Elysées
Au soleil, sous la pluie, à midi ou à minuit
Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Elysées

Tu m'as dit "J'ai rendez-vous dans un sous-sol avec des fous
Qui vivent la guitare à la main, du soir au matin"
Alors je t'ai accompagnée, on a chanté, on a dansé
Et l'on n'a même pas pensé à s'embrasser

Aux Champs-Elysées, aux Champs-Elysées
Au soleil, sous la pluie, à midi ou à minuit
Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Elysées

Hier soir deux inconnus et ce matin sur l'avenue
Deux amoureux tout étourdis par la longue nuit
Et de l'Étoile à la Concorde, un orchestre à mille cordes
Tous les oiseaux du point du jour chantent l'amour

Aux Champs-Elysées, aux Champs-Elysées
Au soleil, sous la pluie, à midi ou à minuit
Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Elysées

Ramblings..

2008-06-25T22:59:00.000+01:00

I've been so busy over the past few weeks, I wasn't even sure what I was doing at times.. I guess in a way it's good, because this means I wouldn't have the time to think about certain issues but on the other hand, I am exhausted. Even my thoughts are disorganized now, I believe you could see it from my posts, couldn't you?

I'll be going home in 11 days time and yet, I don't feel ready to go home at all. There's just so much to do but I have so little time. I wonder if I'll be able to finish all the tasks I have in my hands now, before I go home. *Fingers crossed* I hope I will be able to do that.

And all those issues that I've been trying so hard to kick out of my mind. Sigh..

"Lets just go with the flow and see what happens." This is my infamous motto. We shall wait and see what happens. Lets pray that nothing dramatic will take place *Smilez*

Patience. Control my anger. Smile. Patience. Control my anger. Smile.

Like I said, I don't even know what I'm talking about now.. Au Revoir.

A delay on my shifting date..

2008-06-25T18:14:00.002+01:00

Just got a call from Scott, Dandara.. it seems that the previous tenant of my apartment left a big mess. Apart from the contract cleaning, they'll also need to carry out some 'fittings' (perhaps it's the carpets?) and other maintainence work.

Therefore instead of 2nd July, I can only shift in on Friday, 4th July. If my parents hear about this, they'll definately say that it's dem 'pantang'.. wonder how this word came into M'sian Chinese's vocab.

What can I do right?! But this means, I'll only have 2 full days to shift in, unpack and buy furnitures for the new apartment.. clean up AS's apartment, and pack my luggage for Malaysia before my flight on 6th July.

Amy's getting married too!

2008-06-25T16:48:00.000+01:00

Like what we've said a year ago.. 2008 will be a year of weddings ;p

It was Meei Shya's wedding earlier and in 1 months time, it'll be Amy's turn.

And the best part is, I'll be able to attend the wedding! Yippie!

Will also be anticipating a mini CBNers reunion on the wedding night.

Congrats Amy & Arthur.

Sick.. yet again.

2008-06-25T11:57:00.000+01:00

It all started right after the Paris trip, KimWah caught a flu from Paris and LJ caught hers from somewhere else.. just before they shifted into Apartment 607, The Lock Building.

Being highly suceptible to flu ;p I have a tendency since I arrived in Manchester don't you think? I caught the bugs from both of them.. well at least I think that's how I caught my flu, since it is 2 times worse than theirs and I been spending most of my time in the apartment, you see and I haven't been to anywhere else recently.. other than Cardiology Clinic in Stepping Hill Hospital. Ok I did go to Arndale and Kenneth's new place last weekend ;p

So here I am.. down with flu, fever, sore throat, cough and lethargy. At the same time, I have a million of other things to complete. How brilliant..

Stress..

2008-06-24T19:16:00.001+01:00

One 2000-6000 words essay

One portfolio review

One project plan

One project option lecture

One Trauma Day

..all in 1 week..

for an sick girl

STRESS

41, The Lock Building..

2008-06-23T14:19:00.002+01:00

Although it's not the ideal unit for the both of us.. aka LJ and I,

we couldn't find anything else that's better.. and at a resonable price.

Therefore we finally signed the contract last Thursday..

at least we have a place to stay for the next 6 months. Right?

It is actually quite a decent place, perhaps my expectations were too high.

Secret roof..

2008-06-23T14:10:00.001+01:00

I didn't know SMK CBN has a secret roof!!!

Kisa make sure you bring me there when I'm back in KL ok?

It's such waste.. that I didn't know about it's existance until now.

It'll be a way better spot compared to my lil' corner behind the Pink Dorm..

Congratulations Meei Shya..

2008-06-23T13:59:00.003+01:00

You're the first!

Mingy just mailed me some pictures of the dinner.
Sorry I couldn't attend it.. can't wait to see more

weddings pics when I come back. *hugz*

Paris tomorrow..

2008-06-13T23:14:00.001+01:00

Will be away for a 'long' weekend trip tomorrow, and I don't have to skip clinics!

My counsultant will be in Berlin for a meeting on Hypertension while I'm in Paris..

C'est La Vie.. *Smilez*

Student Grand Round presentation on Aortic Stenosis...

2008-06-13T23:04:00.001+01:00

We won! We won!

Heard from my colleague, Ben that we are all invited to have dinner with our dean!

But this was not mentioned in my invitation letter, wonder if it's true.

It'll be really exciting if it's true though. He seems like a really fun guy.

Another letter from the dean..

2008-06-13T22:54:00.001+01:00

A totally unexpected suprise.

No, I'm not in trouble or anything.. don't worry *Grinz* It's a letter to commend me for being a 'good' student after he had a chat with my consultant.

The problem is, he named my consultant wrongly.. I was supposed to be with Dr. Aziz but he left Wythenshawe months ago and the consultant that I with was actually Dr. Sarma whom I've only met once and communicated via with email twice. So how did I become the 'good' student? Strange.

Anyhow, I've got an extra letter to put into my portfolio now for meeting my consultant once and emailing him twice. That's easy isn't it? Sweet! (Just like how WeiWei would say it)

*By the way, Kenn's dictating the letter over and over again just like a consultant would after seeing each patient on an outpatient clinic ;p

Apartment..

2008-06-10T23:38:00.000+01:00

Due to sheer pressure by unmentionable factors I have finally shortlisted one apartment which is available in the market, that has a carpark, within the same building as my friends and more or less reasonably priced (at least within that building) and paid the agent fees to secure the place.

BUT...

I'm not happy or relieved. I was more upset about it instead really..

This is not the unit I want!!! Please please let the unit I want come out within the next few days and at a resonable price please...

Shifting out..

2008-06-10T23:28:00.001+01:00

I've finally moved my lazy ass and started packing the billionz of stuff that I manage to stuff into my cozy lil' room (well not that lil', this is going to be one of the things I'll miss about this hall.. Sigh!) in Ashburne Hall, rented a red Peugoet 206 from Alamo and up till now (I've only started packing at 3pm today)..

I've managed to:-
1) pack most of my stuff, except for my electronics, imp documents and CLOTHES! into 26 parcels (told you that it's billionz of things)..
2) shift half of my room to AS's place
how efficient is that?!

Will have to start packing the rest of my stuff and shift them all into AS's place by tomorrow afternoon, I can only keep the car until 2pm ;p Hope I can get all these done in time *fingers crossed*

My tutor is..

2008-06-10T23:22:00.001+01:00

a Hypertension Enthusiast!

I'm supposed to write an essay each week on different topics of Hypertension, ala SSC essay style! And on my last week, I'm supposed to come up with a project topic to work on. Stress! This week's essay is on Epidemiology of Hypertension and I'm supposed to submit it on Friday morning. Guess what, I haven't even search up any info about it yet. Argh!!!!

SSC..

2008-06-10T00:10:00.000+01:00

it lasted from 9.30am until 9.30pm today in Stepping Hill.. by the time I got back to Fallowfield and have dinner it was already 11.30pm.

Hardcore..

Liar..

2008-06-09T00:31:00.001+01:00

Did you really think that I'll believe what you've said..

when you called me today?

Do you really think that I'm so thick?

And even if you really like what you have now..

But what about us..

What are we left with?

My recent experience..

2008-06-09T00:24:00.001+01:00

taught me one thing..

From this moment onwards,

Always stick to your own plans

Always trust yourself

Don't let other people's decisions affect you

Because.. by doing so

I've just landed myself with a whole shit load of problems.

Strange dream..

2008-06-08T02:16:00.000+01:00

Dreamt again this morning..

This time I can remember it, amazingly

There was a lot of people involved in it

but I can only recognize one face

Strangely, the feeling each stranger gave me was very familiar..

Eg: I felt the lady's my mum

I felt the kid's my sister

I felt the room that looked like an isolated ward in House was part my home back in M'sia

Perhaps it's just a random dream

Perhaps it signify how I'm feeling now

Really wonder what it really meant..

The gift of song..

2008-06-08T02:07:00.003+01:00

has been taken away from me.

The voice's not stable anymore..

and I can't produce sound at certain pitches

on my left throat

since last September

after I lost my voice

Will it recover with time? But it's been 9 months since

Or should I consult a specialist..

Got tagged by Kisa pulak..

2008-06-06T19:35:00.000+01:00

RULES
1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?- Leave him..
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?- Wish that I'll achieve my AIM.
3. Whose butt would you like to kick?- Can't think of nebody
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?- It'll fund me, my mum, and siblings for the rest of our life.
5. What's your ideal lover like?- Someone matured, intelligent and capable. Someone who can lead. Someone who understands me. Someone who cares and listens.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?- Well the most ideal will be both, isn't it?
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?- If you really believe that the person will accept you with time and if it doesn't go against your principals, then no matter how long you've got to wait it's worthy. Isn't it?
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?- Just be happy for them.. I will never let myself be the 3rd person in someone's relationship.
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?- It changes all the time, perhaps it's because I'm fickle or perhaps I haven't found anything that can make me really happy yet ;)
10. What takes you down the fastest?- Certain bad news..
11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?- When I was applying to Manchester Uni, the same question was asked.. I crapped and wrote a whole shit load of stuff, but honestly I can't really see myself in 10 years time.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?- Fam, friends & bf
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?- Someone who was very afraid of me when she was younger, but now not so much anymore rite? Quite rebellious sometimes as well.
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?-be single and rich. There's no insurance in marraiges.
15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?- shut off the alarm, set it to ring again in 15mins time.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?- What's giving all?
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?- I don't think I'll be so 'hua xin'
18. What type of people do you hate?- If they're ppl we have then why must we remind ourselves of them right? So I will not discribe them ;)

19. List 5 people to tag.-Myself, myself, myself, myself, myself

Exams over..

2008-06-06T19:31:00.001+01:00

But why don't I feel relaxed at all?

Feels like it's going to turn out to be an imperfect ending..

Hope it's wouldn't turn out as such *Fingers crossed*

OSCE..

2008-06-03T01:57:00.000+01:00

One more day to OSCE.. am so not prepared.

Hope I won't fail this paper though.. did quite badly in the SAQ paper earlier.
If I fail this too.. then I'll have to repeat Year 3.

I DON'T WANT!!!!!

*actually I typed DOWAN but Kenn was laughing at me, so I have to change it ;p*

Where has all the energy gone?

2008-06-01T23:58:00.000+01:00

Really wonder where has all my fighting spirit gone.. it's only getting worse not better. Comparing the Evie in Form5 with the Evie now, it's so obvious.. Where has all that energy gone?

Dreams..

2008-06-01T20:27:00.000+01:00

Strange, strange..

Within two weeks time.. had two long lost friends suddenly contact me, because I appeared in their dreams.

Such a coincidence!
Is it because they felt the 'Evie is down' aura?
It was really nice to hear from them.. Grinz!

I too have been dreaming a lot nowadays (I rarely do that honestly), though I can't really remember what they're all about.. I know it's of people who I miss loads.

Miss ya peeps!

All the best..

2008-06-01T20:20:00.000+01:00

Just noticed that apart from me.. there's loads of people out there who's feeling pretty low now. Perhaps it's the weather, perhaps it's the exams stress, perhaps it's the people around them or perhaps it's because of other factors.. but really I hope everything will turn out fine.. for ALL OF THEM.. and for ME. *Fingers crossed*

All the best people!!!

Calls..

2008-05-31T12:13:00.002+01:00

If I don't call back after 20 missed calls, isn't it a sign? Please don't tell me things that I don't want to hear right now.. even if you think that you're comforting me. You're actually tearing out the dried scab that I've produced to cover my wound. It managed to stop the bleeding for now, so until I've settled task 1, I'm planning to leave this wound alone. I'll take care of further bleeds and scars later. So really.. Please, drop it!

Back on coffee again..

2008-05-31T12:00:00.000+01:00

I've managed to stop using my coffee machine for quite some time now but recently the days have become gloomy again, it was not as cheerful as it was 2 weeks ago.. wonder if it's really because of the weather or it's because of my feelings or it's a mixture of both, and it's just so difficult to wake up! To be honest with you, I wake up at 12pm nowadays, really wonder where all my exams spirit has gone to.. OSCE's on Wednesday and yet my progress is still so slow.

Anyway back to my coffee machine.. Quite glad that I actually bought it 8 months ago ;p From what I see, I'm making every penny spent worthy *Grinz*

Can't understand..

2008-05-29T22:30:00.001+01:00

Why a simple thing like renting a house.. can become so complicated in the end?

Mm.. curious, curious.

Stress..

2008-05-29T20:23:00.001+01:00

What will you do.. when everything that can go wrong, goes wrong?

One litre of tears..

2008-05-29T01:25:00.000+01:00

Touching

Painful

yet.. Real

Based on a real story.. really wonder where she found all those energy and strength to cope with such a distressing condition for so so long. Is it because of her family or is it because of her inborn traits.

Just like Faiz, I cried after watching every single episode..

For the all the pain and torture she has to go through,

when her motor-neuron functions gradually break down day by day.

For having such a beautiful family,

who loves her, protects her and supports her.

For finding a guy who fell in love with her.. despite the disease.

Perhaps it's because this is real life story turned into a drama. The viewers knows everything.. They know what each character's done, thinking or wishes to do. Everything's clear.. and of course, the director will definately cut out all the tiny little details that will make the drama lengthy and boring. Perhaps that's the reason everything made more sense and seems more spectacular here than in real life.

I wonder how my life story will turn out to be, if it were to be made into a drama.

Lost emails..

2008-05-28T14:08:00.000+01:00

How can my emails possibly go missing overnight?!

I've got imp info inside!!!! Woo~

Can't sleep..

2008-05-28T00:04:00.000+01:00

Can't stop thinking..

Anger, anger please go away

I understand..

2008-05-27T21:20:00.001+01:00

KisaBella.. I'm quite sure that I understand ;p

Life's a mess..

2008-05-27T20:11:00.001+01:00

Hate long term uncontrollable problems

Hate big aims with large responsibilities

Hate bad news that comes at the most stressful periods

Hate crying in Starbucks because of feeling helpless

Hate feeling scared because of unpreparedness

Hate feeling worried because of uncertainty

Hate feeling anger because of other people's fickle mindedness

Hate feeling sorry because of expecting too much

Hate feeling lonely because of my fear to trust

Hate recalling that there's not much of a happy past

How much longer can I cope?

I really wonder.. how much longer CAN I COPE

Anger, Hatred and Frustration..

2008-05-24T15:36:00.000+01:00

When someone fails to carry out his role and responsibilities, when someone betrays your trust.. it's natural that you'll feel dissapointment, anger and hatred. But things gets worse when you can't do anything to correct or at least get out of the situation, you've got to stay on the spot and watch helplessly, letting it torture and torment you.

Although it's easy to tell the others not to do anything stupid to hurt themself physically.. that they must hang on there, that they shouldn't take everything too personally and try to build a barrier between themself and the situation, that things will be fine with time and that he be able to get out of the situation soon. But I know very well that it's not as easy as it is said, when I'm half a world apart, how would these people cope? Can they look after themselves? Are they being bullied like nobody's business now and yet they refuse to tell me about it?

It really hurts..

The hardest thing is to convince myself that all the things I've told them will come true soon.

Grr..

2008-05-23T17:04:00.000+01:00

Stupid... how can I be well in the morning and sick again in the evening?!

O'Sulloc Green Tea Cafe

2008-05-23T14:45:00.002+01:00

Anybody visiting Seoul, Korea soon?!

I need to stock up on my O'Sulloc Premium Tea, SeJak from O'Sulloc Cafe.

Pretty please ;) Can't find them online.

All better now..

2008-05-23T14:18:00.001+01:00

Yay!

Thanks..

2008-05-22T16:40:00.000+01:00

Remember the picture booklet I gave you before I left?

I said.. you're the purest and most sincere person I've ever met. Even though I'm half a world away, with 7 hours of time difference, when you're so busy with your hospital & charity work.. you still make an effort to check how I'm doing every few days when you found out that I was unhappy.

Really appreciate it oh.. Miss you loads girl *Hugz*

Sick again?

2008-05-22T12:34:00.002+01:00

Fever, dehydrated, headache and eczema's back.. what else will come up now?

Crap!

Miss you finally..

2008-05-21T21:12:00.000+01:00

Hear the song that's playing on my blog now?

Very jiwang isn't it? The first time I heard this song was from Healing Hands (II, I believe), can still remember the scene though.. it was playing in Tracy's room, when she was upset over something (forgot what though, it's been years la c'mon, was still in high school wei).

It's nothing fancy really, quite a mushy and simple song..

But it is quite special. Don't really know when I got attracted to this song.. but months after watching that episode, it started playing in my mind again. Even until now; although it's been years since I've first heard this song, although I don't have the urge to listen to it all the time, it will always pop into my mind from time to time.. espically when I'm sad, lonely and down. Just like a good friend from the past, giving me a suprise visit when I need support the most.

Perhaps it's the title of the song.. I really do MISS YOU FINALLY.

A day full of negative news..

2008-05-15T00:25:00.000+01:00

Apart from the Year 4's posting, there's another bad news.. I didn't get a GP posting for my SSC.

Thought I'd like to use this period to settle some personal stuff.. but because I haven't done a DGH posting, I had select 2 DGH topics.. That's my last two choices and I got my last choice!

Crap..

Leighton Hospital for O&G posting... OMG!

2008-05-15T00:00:00.000+01:00

Sigh..my worst nightmare came true! I've been sent to South's furthest District General Hospital (well apart from Blackpool for Year5s, even so that's good news to me cause I can stay in Kenn's house), Leighton Hospital.. that's in Crewe!!!! Even further than Macclesfield!!!! Double, Triple woo!!!

It's 34.2miles away from where I'm intending to stay. Google says it takes 52mins to drive there. According to GMPTE, I need 1hour 46mins..via 2 busses and 1train to reach the hospital! And it's 60.2miles away from Kenn's house..

Sigh.. will definately need to stay in the hostel.. with no internet access, dirty, poorly maintained rooms and I thought by June I'm finally able to say goodbye to shared toilets & kitchens! Really hope I wouldn't get SAD again, it ruins everything. Woo!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well.. lets try to look on the bright side.. unlike HLB & NME, I'll only be there for my O&G posting for 7 weeks. That's only 35days right? And I'm starting with Leighton Hospital first, meaning it'll still be Autumn and it's just starting to get gloomy. Oh yeah, I heard that's the hosp that gives out bleepers to students so that they'll be informed when 'things happens'. Hope the teaching's good..

Progress Test..

2008-05-12T22:26:00.000+01:00

Phew it's finally over.. a part of me is glad because this means there's one burden less but another part of me is worried because I THINK I DID VERY BADLY IN THIS PROGRESS TEST!!!!

Hope I'll PASS!

Progress Test Tomorrow..

2008-05-11T11:19:00.002+01:00

In bad shape.. we're supposed to have covered 6 different body systems by now but I've only read Respi and half of Gastro & CVS up till now.

Very frustrated and irritated now. I just can't concentrate. Perhaps I'm the type who need to study alone..

The only thing I can think of this morning is.. I'm giving up, I'll just do PYQ and that's all.

The thought that I'll go into the exam hall tomorrow afternoon and not knowing how to answer the 125 questions on the exam paper is pretty scary. Thank god it's MCQ. But still I don't wanna fail. Hope I won't.

Petronas Merdeka 2007 ad.. WOW!

2008-05-09T13:17:00.002+01:00

Mampukah apa yang kita bina hari ini membawa kita ke hadapan?

Wow.. a very daring and strong message. Was it really on national TV? Don't remember seeing this. Suprising..

But still... like this one the most.

Petronas CNY 2008 advertistment..

2008-05-09T12:30:00.004+01:00

Have always liked Petronas advertistments... missed this one because I came to Manchester but found it on YouTube yesterday night.

Poor boy, doesn't even know what a Reunion Dinner is, yet he does not complain nor seek the world's sympathy because he's an orphan. Instead pastes a big smile on his face in front of his friends, despite his misfortune.

Great & meaningful ad.

Realized that every CNY ads from Petronas carries the same message.. go home for Reunion Dinner if you can.

Petronas CNY Ad 2007

Petronas CNY ad 2006-love this one the most ;-)

OMG!

2008-05-08T20:24:00.000+01:00

I'm floating...

Sleep..

2008-05-08T16:25:00.001+01:00

My discontinuous sleep problem is haunting me again..

went to bed at 2am but only doze off at 6am this morning, man it's giving me a headache.

Don't think too much Evie.. if this continue for another 2 weeks,

you'll turn into a zombie!

What went wrong...

2008-05-07T17:04:00.002+01:00

When I first got into a relationship.. my brother told me, "You've become soft".

I then replied him, "Isn't that good?"

I'm starting to doubt my decision now.. if I hadn't got into a relationship: then I would've remained strong, have total control over my life & time, never experienced constant pampering, love & attention thus not afraid of losing it, be less reliant on others, be as decisive as I used to be, be as ambitious, vigilant and presistant as I used to be..

A major change has lead me to re-evaluate certain things in my life recently.. and I suddenly realize that I actually have some really heavy burden on my shoulders and they're here to stay. I either need a very competant other half or all these qualities back.. to bear the burden.

Lets get back to the relationship.. is it my problem or my other half's?

What did I do wrong here? And, how could I correct it.

Showers again..

2008-05-07T15:58:00.001+01:00

OMG.. no HOT WATER in the showers since last night!!!!

What kinda hostel is this? Really glad that I'm shifting out next year..

Tatler's Doctor's Guide!

2008-05-06T15:10:00.003+01:00

Prof Christopher Griffiths
One of Britain’s top dermatologists, Griffiths is a leading expert on psoriasis and takes a multidisciplinary approach to managing the condition, combining new treatments and educational input with psychological support. He is a past chairman of the British Society for Investigative Dermatology and president of the British Association of Dermatologists

OMG, didn't know he was so KENG! No wonder he was so passionate about Psoriosis and Eczema. He does a lot of research on it! Glad that he thaught me while I was doing Intro to Dermatology in Hope Hospital! If I really do specialize in Dermatology, hope I can do some research with his team ;-) Btw, did I mention that he's one of the nicest consultants I've ever met?!

Shower..

2008-05-06T11:50:00.000+01:00

Man.. I cound't even shower in peace here at Ashburne Hall!

Decided to take a shower to wake myself up this afternoon and guess what, the cleaner came into the toilet and PEEKED into my cubicle.. from the gap below the door la ;p what were you thinking?! And shouted at me, saying that the shower curtain's not inside the shower.. you're wetting the floor!

OMG.. I didn't know that they even control the way you place your shower curtain in Ashburne Hall! Nor do I know that cleaners were allowed to PEEK into the cubicle to check if you're adhearing to the rules.

OK, they don't want us to wet the floor.. then as long as we DON'T WET THE FLOOR, it doesn't really matter how we place the curtains.. RIGHT?! It was ok to place the curtain inside today because it's quite warm but during winter, the difference in temperature causes the curtain to stick to you. Think about it, you're showering to make yourself clean and the curtain, which sticks on the other ppl who's staying on your floor.. if they change the curtains every academic year (doubt it, because from it's stained yellow now).. for the past 7months, now sticks on you! Yuck! Disgusting...

So I came out of the shower after that and found the floor DRY!!!!! I didn't even wet it.. and I didn't everytime I shower ok! But when I pointed this out to the cleaner she just said YOU MUST PUT THE SHOWER CURTAINS IN, PEOPLE HAVE BEEN COMPLAING ABOUT WET FLOOR completely disregarding the fact that it was dry.. which made her entire argument pointless!

Excuse me, that was not me.. if you want to catch someone you must find evidence.. shower curtains outside shower's might lead to wet floors, but it's not a definate thing to happen.. a wet floors the evidence! And I DIDN'T WET THE FLOOR, B*iatch! ARE YOU BLIND?

Grr.. was so pissed!

Got tagged.. by EeWan

2008-05-05T13:56:00.000+01:00

8 things I'm passionate about:
1) TRAVELLING around the world (at the same time collecting Charms & starbucks mugs)
2) Musical boxes
3) Photography
4) Dancing
5) Musicals & Ballet recitals
6) Great culinary experience & fine wine/champagne
7) Yoga, sauna, massages, mani & pedi-the way to live life!
8) Ways to make sufficient money to support myself and 2 kids until I die

8 things I say too often:
1) No! (To Kenn ;p)
2) Dunno (Also to Kenn)
3) You choose le..
4) Wah lau!
5) I'm ok with anything le..
6) You decide!
7) Yau mou..
8) Wei!

8 books I've read recently:
1) OHCM
2) Online medical websites
OMG, sigh didn't read any other books recently! So no life..

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1) Right Here Waiting-Richard Marx
2) Ah Ngau-Eason Chan
3) Hang Fuk Mo Tin Lun-Eason Chan
4) Bu Shiang Shui-Liang Jin Ru
5) I've Never Been To Me-Charlene
6) Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen/Liang Jin Ru
7) Such Great Heights-Postal Service
8) Miss You Finally-Trademark

8 things I learnt for the past year:
1) In this world.. the only person you can depend on is YOURSELF. Must try your best not to rely on anybody else for your own progress & dev or your own wellbeing.
2) Must work hard to earn enough money to support YOURSELF and the few others that you intend to support, because nobody else will.
3) Humans have a tendency to think only from their own point of view, thus making them appear selfish. Try not to be like them.
4) Don't despair, everything happens for a reason. God has a plan.. just go with the flow.
5) When something bad happens, something good will follow.
6) It's good to know who you can turn to when you're upset over something because sometimes the easiest person to reach might not be the one who's most comforting or gives the best advice.
7) True friends are the ones who'll take effort to keep in contact with you even when you're half a world away, don't care about money when it comes to calling & texting you and wake up early to just coach your studies. *Thanks a lot dear..*
8) You wouldn't know how much you like or need something, until you loses it & get it back.

8 people I would like to TAG:
1) Evelyn
2) Evie
3) Eve
4) Saphion
5) Xing Jie
6) Jie Jie
7) Looi
8) Ah Lui

White White White!

2008-05-05T13:27:00.001+01:00

Was surfing some property search engines and I came across this unit. A luxurious 2 bedroom penthouse in China House. That's along Whithworth Street, pretty near New Samsi and Bannatyne's Health Club (I could go swimming once in a blue moon ;p).. Chinatown and Arndale is just 10mins walk away too ;) .

It comes fully furnished, with a CARPARK! The best part is...look at the furnishing and the walls! White & yet so stylish! The owner's taste must be quite similar to mine because I love every aspect of this unit! Love it SO SO MUCH! But the problem is.. it only have one ensuite double bedroom and a single bedroom. Who'll take the single right? And it's GBP950.. And there's not enough units to fit the 6 of us in the same building anyway, up till now there's only 2 units avail in China House.

So near yet so far.. couldn't believe such a great unit is out for RENT! TOO BAD. But WOW! Love it!

Champagne glasses..

2008-05-02T15:16:00.008+01:00

I'm still having the same crave.. and what's more important to enjoy a good drink *apart from buying a good bottle that is* than to sip it from a beautifully designed champagne glass. The question is... should I get one that is designed to bring out its flavour or a romantic one?

BV 6 - Bottega Champagner ($159.95, set of 4)

Height 10 1/2" Volume 8 1/2 ozOne of the most beautiful and romantic champagne glasses we have ever featured. Individually hand-crafted and mouth-blown from lead-free crystal in Verona, Italy... and dishwasher safe.

Suggested Uses:An exquisitely graceful flute for all champagne and sparkling wines.

7 - Schott Zwiesel Forte- ($59.95, Set of 6)

Height 8.9" Volume 7.7 ozThe classic shape for all sparkling wines. It's designed to concentrate the bouquet and preserve the sparkle. A graceful addition to all of life's celebrations. Machine blown in brilliant, break-resistant lead-free crystal.

Appropriate for Champagne, Vin Mousseaux, Sekt, Cava and Prosecco.

Champagne

2008-05-01T15:03:00.000+01:00

Really feel like buying a bottle of good Champagne and enjoy it with a beautiful Champagne glass today. Sighzz..

Fo Guang Shan Buddhist Temple

2008-04-24T14:55:00.000+01:00

Guess what.. I went to a Buddhist temple today ;p It's not too far away from the university actually, but I have to take two busses to get there.

Fo Guang Shan Buddhist Temple along Stretford Road, Old Trafford.

Took notice of this temple since last semester, because I had to pass it weekly to get to my GP in Orsdall.. actually AS asked me to visit the temple on Sunday to have a Vegetarian meal there because it was the 15th but due to some circumstances I didn't go ;p

EeWan was the one who suggested visiting the temple today, so the three of us went there in between EeWan's class (Haha, you're starting to have the impression that she's very religous, don't you? I'm not sure either, why don't you ask her yourself).

Was quite suprised how big the temple was. Really liked the place. Amazingly.. you'll feel very calm and peaceful once you enter the shrine.. perhaps it's due to the layout and design. Or perhaps it's because you'll feel as if you've been transported out of UK for that moment of time. They have a large Buddha in one shrine and Kuan Yin in another.

A very cute baby monk!

They even have a room which sells books, CDs, VCDs, DVDs and tapes related to Buddhism teachings.. that's where I found this set of DVD...

This is one of the first few series I've watched in my life, at least the ones with the strongest impression.. I can actually remember certain scenes and the 'Chu Tai Kuk'. My mum will be excited about this because she tried very hard looking for this series recently but couldn't find it ;p but it cost GBP88 here..super expensive!

Spring.. I'm loving it!

2008-04-23T17:07:00.002+01:00

Sunlight & sunnies, cool breeze, shawls, blooming flowers & buzzing bees.. bright smiles on passerby's faces... frisbees, sunbathing & reading with a warm mug of hot chocolate in the garden. It seems like everybody's enjoying Spring these 2 days.

I didn't miss out as well.. Cardiology turned out to be quite laid back, at least I am allowing my first three weeks to be laid back.. Yesterday I went to Didsbury with AS, EeWan and Queenie for Brunchner (aka Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner), after a short visit to Belvior Central (this issue, very kek sei yan dowan to talk about it here), and the Brunchner lasted about 3 hours long.. until the sun was about to set ;p

Went to this Freehouse called The Slug and the Lettuce, they have a small balcony with tiny tables which was just nice for 4 person. Because I've been depriving myself from proper meals, I decided to indulge myself with Sirloin Steak, but I kinda regretted it in the end because I was STUFFED halfway through.. and because it's so expensive, you just have to finish it don't you?! Queenie ordered a platter that looks Yummilicious...stole some onion rings from her plate ;p

The Peeps: EeWan, AS, Queenie and me!

Queenie all wrapped up like a baby, to aviod getting dark ;p

While AS was trying on my Sunnies.. IT"S TOO SMALL FOR YOUR FACE AS!

Nothing beats sipping coffee, chatting and spending time with your friends on a beautiful, warm and sunny day.. sitting on a balcony or by the window is a PLUS.

Did I mention that the setting sun was beautiful?!

This is my favourite picture of the day ;p Credits to EeWan!

I stayed in today, with the intention to study.. but I got distracted again by the beautiful weather.. It's quite hard to concentrate really when you find people taking out mats and having picnics in our gardens, some read books, did courseworks, some gossipped under my window ;p, some played frisbees and at this very moment there's a group of guys playing football on the driveway.

EeWan even convinced me to go out for dinner again.. think I'll indulge myself with Starbucks later!

Sorry.. this two pics are taken by my Nokia 6300.. Hence the quality.

I'm loving Spring..

Decision, decision, decision..

2008-04-22T12:57:00.000+01:00

Have you experienced a period time where you have to make several important decisions within a short period of time? These tend to come when you're busiest, you know when you have other important things like FINALS to worry about. But because of the IMPORTANCE of these issues and because it involves more than one person, you just can't help but divert your attention from studying to think about all these stuff, even when you've told yourself...alright I'll only worry about it in 3 weeks time!

If you've experienced it before, I'm quite sure you'll understand what I'm saying right now.

It start looming in your head until you've get it sorted out, and sometimes you'll start doubting yourself after you've made a decision and you'll start thinking to yourself; "Shit, I don't think I've made the right decision, CRAP... what if THIS THIS THAT THAT will take place instead. Man I shouldn't have done it!"

This is human nature, don't you think? Or perhaps it's only for pessimists.. because we're not 100% sure about the future, we'll doubt ourselves whenever we have a chance to.

Don't think I'll get these problems sorted out anytime soon... must brainwash myself to start preparing for finals first! Sigh... why am I not stressed about FINALS?! It's less than 3 weeks away! If I'm back in IMU now.. I'll be at PANIC level by this time. Double sigh...

Time..

2008-04-15T16:30:00.000+01:00

Don't you sometimes wish that you could turn back time?

Mirror..

2008-04-11T14:48:00.000+01:00

"I'm a Mirror. I'll treat you the same way you treat me."

Piccolino Didsbury..

2008-04-10T22:31:00.001+01:00

I think it has already become a habit.. that the BKGs eat out every Tuesday (well at least whenever we can). Not that we don't eat out on other nights.. *this is why I'm so broke.

This week EeWan, AikSeng and I went to Piccolino in Didsbury.. LJ had to rush her portfolio and Clubbing Queen Kwinie had a retro party to attend ;p. It's strange honestly because I've always considered the area as Whitington, but according to the resturant's website it's classified under Didsbury!

Anyway.. AS rented a car from Gatwick London two nights ago, and STILL HAVEN'T RETURNED IT.. it was supposed to be a one day rental ;p *We can see how much he loved driving* So it was pretty easy to get to the restaurant.. otherwise bus No.43 and a 5 minutes walk can bring us there as well.

I ordered Penne genovase, it was really good.. I tried buying those pre-made sauces from Sainsbury (they're quite expensive too) and they tend to be too oily, but this one was just perfect! The tiramisu and the wine was quite bad to be honest with you. Think they put too much cheese? Because it's texture was almost HARD! Was very dissapointed and it kinda spoilt the experience ;p

The ambience on the other hand was really cool.. quite posh to be honest. Tried to take some pictures with my PDA but the results was quite dissapointing, really regretted not bringing my camera out nowdays ;p

After dinner we made a trip to the grocery store in New Samsi and then 'long kai' around Trafford Centre and Salford Quays. We went into Chill Factor to have a look at the skiing ground, it's not bad but it cost a bomb just to get a 1hour 30min skiing session. Doubt that I'll try skiing there.. unless I'm planning to go on a skiing trip and want to train in a 'safer' place. The Quays was really quiet, calm and peaceful.. We even had a stroll around the canal, but I think I would've enjoyed the stroll a little more if I had brought a thicker jacket.. I was walking around in a thin Tee and my purple Buddhist Punk jacket. Brr...

Overall I had a really great time, but then again.. felt kinda guilty because we ought to be studying or at least try to study instead of going to 'lan-kai' until 12am in the morning.. and LJ was working on her portfolio the entire night. Poor girl!

8 hours of surgery on a Wednesday..

2008-04-10T13:47:00.000+01:00

Finally dragged my lazy bum into Operation Theater 1 in Acute Block yesterday and spent 8 continuous hours in surgery, it's record breaking really.. the longest I've spent in theater previously is 6 hours.

Since I'm attached to Vascular Surgery again and the SpR from my previous team have transferred over to my current team, there's a huge sense of familiarity in it.

So the cases I've seen yesterday was:-
1: Right external carotid anderectomy
2: Right internal carotid anderectomy
3: Illieo-femoral psuedoanerysm and regraft.

The consultant was really really good and QUICK! Was very impressed.

The final surgery was the longest...because there was two vessels running, one's the original one and the other is a graft. Technically speaking the original vessel shouldn't have any blood running through it anymore but after the consultant clamped the graft, there's still a pulsatile vessel. A big ? even on the consultant's face.. we had to look up the patient's CT scan again and again to find out what could it be.

Suspect 1: Could it be a calcified vessel just next to the graft therefore he cannot clamp it completely?
Suspect 2: The original vessel is patent again and blood was running through it as well?

The consultant had no idea.

A risk must be taken, he continued in his attempt to clamp whatever was pulsatile (even though he had no idea what was happening).. he finally managed to, then proceed on with the surgery. I wasn't expecting to see a huge gunk of new and old blood clot (it was huge, about 5cm in diameter and looked like 'Chu Yun' that people like to eat in Malaysia) taken out from the patient's abdomen..they actually used a spoon to scoop the gunk out!!!

The best part of the surgery was when the consultant said: lets find out what that pulse was all about. He was intending to declamp the final clamp he put on just now. For the first time, I saw uncertainty and worry on his face. Quite a sight really.. hahaha.

There wasn't any blood flow.. he just laughed and said, "Well I don't know what that's all about either!" to himself? To his SpR? To his SHO? I don't know.. nobody said a word but that's a typical consultant's remarks. He's the big boss there, nobody dares to speak before him anyway.

Really wonder what's the diagnosis/prognosis/procedures if there was a blood flow. Didn't manage to ask, the consultant left after closing up that vessel.

You see..the consultant also found that the initial graft was failing and instructed the SpR to change it. Regrafting was never easy and it usually take ages because you need to carefully sew the grafts again and chemically induced clotting just wouldn't work as well. So what made an already long surgery even longer was the bleeding in the end, the already tired SpR just couldn't find the source of bleeding to sew it back up again.

I was already tired to the core by then.. my legs was really tired and my knees esp the left one was so painful it was so difficult to bend it *it's still painful today*

But I'm very proud of myself, managed to stay until the end! Was one of the best surgical day I had.

Love..

2008-04-09T23:08:00.000+01:00

Why do we need a partner in life?

Self declared self study days..

2008-04-08T18:01:00.001+01:00

Never let me take any working days off anymore with the excuse to do 'Self-Study'! I'll end up sleeping until 2pm; studying TVB series, Japanese series, Animes; blogging and surfing; and going out with my friends instead.

Sigh.. Mou Yok Yi!

What's our purpose here?

2008-04-08T14:53:00.003+01:00

Why are we born into this world?

What's our role here.. to ourselves, to our family,

to our friends, the community and the world?

We are born to die in the end,

then why do we have to fight so hard to live?

At the moment, I feel as if I'm a character in Sim City or Second Life.. its just a game for the amusement of the player.

Dull dull day..

2008-04-07T13:35:00.000+01:00

Although I consider myself as an extremist.. 5 continuous hours of Lectures in a small, stuffed up, pitch black undergraduate lecture theater is just TOO MUCH TO BEAR! Having a 2 hour lecture on Microbiology didn't help either, by the 30th minute.. even before the Consultant finishes her Introduction to Microbiology section I was already dosing off ;p

Still have a PBL to go through.. I'm chairing and I haven't read a single thing on DVT or PE or Resus. Shitz!

Can't wait to jump into the bus and head back to my hostel. My head's throbbing, cause I didn't get any sleep yesterday.

A reminder to self: I MUST not drink Teh Tarik from Red 'n' Hot ANYMORE!!!! At night at least ;p

Episode 3-A person's traits..

2008-04-04T19:03:00.002+01:00

Of all the animes I've watched, Fruit Basket leaves the strongest impression. It's not very popular, especially amongst the guys but when you're down, alone and discouraged.. try watching an episode or two (but I must say episode 1 & 2 if more on introduction of the characters), you might find that what's said makes sense. Perhaps it can change your views and lift your mood.

Episode 3-A person's Traits

"I'm only acting nice because I want to be loved,

It's like I want them to play with me, so I give them candy.

I'm only acting nice so I can be happy.

It may.. all be a lie." Shouma-Kun

"Believe rather than to doubt,

A person is not born with kindness,

Their innate traits are: greed, gluttony, the wish to possess,

They are only the basic surviving instincts.
Kidness is something that everyone has to make with their own hands,

So it's easily misunderstood or thought of as hypocrisy.

Anyone can doubt easily, but try to believe in it and be an encouragement to someone." Honda Thoru

Sunlight.. it's such a blessing!

2008-04-04T14:19:00.000+01:00

Didn't realize that I liked the sun so much until I've experienced a full winter in UK.

I'm not too sure how long the day was in Autumn but I felt that there was very little sunlight for approximately 6 months! Perhaps I was too wound up with all the changes that's surrounding me in the first few months of arrival or I still took the sun for granted.. oh I don't know ;p

But what I know is, I felt more relaxed and happier when the sun is out and bright for the past few weeks! Especially these few days when the temperature is warmer as well! Or perhaps it's because I'm so excited about going home in 3 months time!!! Can't wait!